Remember when you hurled cement hunks from the broken sidewalk nearly missing the back of my head, screaming about how you hate us, how you’re going to kill one of us.
Fucking fags.
When you yelled at me in front of the bar about how I’m not a woman, and how I should die, until I couldn’t stop crying. your cousin said “come, on man, let’s just go.”
Come on, man.
“Oh, you really do have a dick.”
Remember when I was scared to leave the house.
Remember when you pushed me over the bed into the wall and spit in my face.
Remember when I wanted to die, not because of my own insecurity, but because I would rather die by my own volition than be brutalized and left bleeding from the head and mouth, breathing shallowly.
Remember when I kept on living because Le Tigre told me so.

Remember when we were humans in the same fucked up world.

Bye my favorite twin.  Ilu.

Bye my favorite twin. Ilu.

Was feeling particularly drunk and quick at a party tonight, at my favorite capitalism enabled ‘anarchist’ utopia, the RCA/hot mess compound. Saw sone skinny pretty white girls play old fashioned rock ‘n’ roll, talked mad shit to some fuckin assholes, and shotgunned crack on the way home. Thanks Oakland. You suck.

Oh yeah also maybe related really hard to the term “splitting” tonight and then felt a little weird and…. …

running—-on—-empty:

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Hey its cool
Me too…..?

Me n Tiger ridin my #1st AmTrak

Oh hi tumblr. Haven’t posted in a long time, just thought I’d say hey. Of course I still be checkin my dash all the time, just haven’t been feeling like posting anything. I’m sad again, which doesnt surprise me considering I am in portland again. Leaving within the next couple days to visit oakland then head back to new orleans. From there heading to philly and ny and some other places. Baw. I want to be in love again.

Sorry for being so boring

Oh hi tumblr. Haven’t posted in a long time, just thought I’d say hey. Of course I still be checkin my dash all the time, just haven’t been feeling like posting anything. I’m sad again, which doesnt surprise me considering I am in portland again. Leaving within the next couple days to visit oakland then head back to new orleans. From there heading to philly and ny and some other places. Baw. I want to be in love again.

Sorry for being so boring

my butt face.

my butt face.

green haired striped nailed smokin’ femmestache babin’ 2012

green haired striped nailed smokin’ femmestache babin’ 2012

crankyskirt:


ISBN 978-1-935950-05-9 Softcover 6″ x 9″, 240pp Coming September 2012
What Are You Doing Here? investigates how black women musicians and fans navigate the metal, hardcore, and punk music genres that are regularly thought of as inclusive spaces and centered on a community spirit, but fail to block out the race and gender issues that exist in the outside world.
“We can neither reflectively choose our color identity nor downplay its social significance simply by willing it to be unimportant… but our color no more binds us to send a predetermined group message to our fellow human beings than our language binds us to convey predetermined thoughts.”—Amy Gutmann
“Sometimes I think nothing is simple but the feeling of pain.”—Lester Bangs
I’ll be the first to admit that, like any other book, What Are You Doing Here? is partly self-serving. I wanted to find other black women like me: metal, hardcore, and punk fans and musicians that were rabid about the music and culture and adamant about asserting their rightful place as black women within those scenes. I wanted to find other women who put aside the cultural baggage that dictates that we must listen to certain musical styles, and simply enjoy the music that influenced us, not just as black women, but as individuals who grew up in an era when, thanks to technology, a large variety of music is accessible and available to everyone. I found many black women and have shared their stories, but I also realize there is still a lot of work to be done.

Sweet! Looking forward to reading this.

crankyskirt:

ISBN 978-1-935950-05-9
Softcover 6″ x 9″, 240pp
Coming September 2012

What Are You Doing Here? investigates how black women musicians and fans navigate the metal, hardcore, and punk music genres that are regularly thought of as inclusive spaces and centered on a community spirit, but fail to block out the race and gender issues that exist in the outside world.

“We can neither reflectively choose our color identity nor downplay its social significance simply by willing it to be unimportant… but our color no more binds us to send a predetermined group message to our fellow human beings than our language binds us to convey predetermined thoughts.”—Amy Gutmann

“Sometimes I think nothing is simple but the feeling of pain.”—Lester Bangs

I’ll be the first to admit that, like any other book, What Are You Doing Here? is partly self-serving. I wanted to find other black women like me: metal, hardcore, and punk fans and musicians that were rabid about the music and culture and adamant about asserting their rightful place as black women within those scenes. I wanted to find other women who put aside the cultural baggage that dictates that we must listen to certain musical styles, and simply enjoy the music that influenced us, not just as black women, but as individuals who grew up in an era when, thanks to technology, a large variety of music is accessible and available to everyone. I found many black women and have shared their stories, but I also realize there is still a lot of work to be done.

Sweet! Looking forward to reading this.

(via mizbelle)

ourheartsareloudandwillnotrest asked: so I just randomly remembered about how one of the first times we ever hung out i took a shit ton of pictures of you and was afraid you would think that was weird so I tried to be real casual about it and then only posted like one out of a kabillion on the interweb cause I didn't want you to think I was weird but you are just TOO BEAUTIFUL FOR WORDS so, memories or whatever love you keep workin on that fuel

Hehehe aww. That is cute. I love you so much, always. Aw <3

I can’t wait to see you whenever I do. Maybe if you’re up for it we should make up for lost snuggles? Also, yeah I just got a kit to convert from diesel to dream fuel so just need to get the RV now.

"There is most certainly a privilege to having a gender. Just ask someone who doesn’t have a gender, or who can’t pass, or who doesn’t pass. When you have a gender, or when you are perceived as having a gender, you don’t get laughed at in the street. You don’t get beat up. You know which public bathroom to use, and when you use it, people don’t stare at you or worse. You know which form to fill out. You know what clothes to wear. You have heroes and role models. You have a past."

Kate Bornstein, Gender Outlaw (via ceedling)

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cooldogs:

classis cooldog

cooldogs:

classis cooldog

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gatheringofthegoofpunx:

ALL-AGES DIY punk celebration in Portland, OR.Tons of bands, tons of fun, tons of goof.

gatheringofthegoofpunx:

ALL-AGES DIY punk celebration in Portland, OR.

Tons of bands, tons of fun, tons of goof.